You know that scene in so many movies where the guy (or girl) tries to get the opposite character to let loose and scream at the top of their lungs? Somedays I just feel like doing that; to see if it really works or if it's just a tactic used so the characters appear to be developing this closer relationship. Anyway, today I decided to do it. I screamed and yelled, and felt better.
I found that I had the same reaction that the characters in the movies do. Relieved. Relieved and ready to move on. On to the next.
My new goal in renewing my mind and spirit and becoming a better person is to just let go. Let go of things that don't matter and move on. I have found that guys, my guy particularly, are ridiculously good at this. I, on the other hand, will hold onto and dwell on any small irrelevant piece of drama I can; letting it form into such a strong bitterness inside of me that I become a completely different person. Letting my judgments of others get the best of me and keep me from fulfilling whatever my purpose is.
I want to be free from this burden that I embed in my own heart and let have complete dominion over my mind. I want to wrecklessly abandon my own disposition and live in a sweeter one. I am an indentured servant to my thoughts, and all I have to do is scream out and let it go. Move on. Love people.
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